Chapter 9
There Is Buried Treasure
Two Places In You
"Who am I?" Haven’t we all asked ourselves this question?
Philosophers throughout the ages have written on this subject, and
the conclusions are diverse. However, God knows who we really are
and what we are like. He has revealed a great deal of this in His Word,
because He wants us to know who we are. Unfortunately, the world’s
philosophies have contaminated the Christian understanding of what
people are like; so even as Christians we have probably been given a
wrong picture of our nature as human beings. What is important is
what God has to say about us.
What I present in this chapter is not a full or exhaustive description of
humanity. We are complex and multifaceted. I will keep my focus
narrow to demonstrate that there are other parts to our being besides
our conscious faculty. There are several parts of us below our level of
consciousness (what I will refer to as "hidden"), including a part that is
not "bad," that has a "will" of its own, is human, and is a part of us.
The model I will now present helps me explain to you how the parts of
us interact and react as we experience life.
A Diagram Of You
When the Lord created you, He created a place hidden down inside of
you where he placed several attributes, such as your personal spirit,
your emotions, your creativity, your curiosity, your imagination, your
intuition, your masculinity or femininity, your spontaneity, your gifts,
and your talents.
At this point I will not place a label on this place "inside." A label is not
nearly as important as the awareness that there is a place where these
attributes dwell.
Another Place
There is another place the Lord created in you wherein dwells your
willpower, your intellect, and your consciousness. We are
consciously aware of this part of us.
What Do We Call These Two Places?
The place "hidden inside" that contains your personal spirit has been
given many labels by various people, including “heart," "center,"
"inner child," the "real self," our “true self," the "wonder child," our
"inner man," etc. There are many additional terms. I have found that all
of these terms are problematic, either because they are inadequate or
they have become "loaded" with other meaning. For instance, "Inner
Child" is a term that has been captured by New Agers and has become
loaded with their meanings. I am going to choose to use the term
"Treasure Inside" in this chapter, though in other places in this book I
may also use the terms "heart" or "inner man," depending on which
term seems most appropriate to the context.
Regarding the part of us which contains our willpower, intellect, and
consciousness, there are also several labels others have given to that
place. Fortunately, the names for this part of us are less problematic
than are the words used for our "inside" (our Treasure Inside), so I will
call this conscious part our "head."
A Third Place
There is a third place, which is not a part of us, but which impacts us
and relates to us. This place is the "World." For a small child this is
predominantly his or her parents (or other primary care givers).
We Are Complex
When God created us, He chose to distribute these various attributes
of ours into these two different places inside of us (our Head, and our
Treasure Inside) rather than mixing all the attributes together in one
place. We need all the attributes that are in both places, and somehow
they all need to work together. Each of the two parts of us contains
valuable tools that we need in order to live our life fully.
Our childhood experiences are what form the relationship between
these two parts (between our “Head," and our “Treasure Inside”) and
determine how all these parts are going to interrelate.
The Dynamics
You, in your conscious self (Head), receive messages from your
Treasure Inside, and you also receive messages from the World (which
in the early years is predominantly messages from your parents).
The messages you get from your Treasure Inside are little sensations
(sometimes big sensations), awareness, and feelings. But these
messages are not as overt or clear as the messages you get from the
World. The messages you get from the World are overt and in your
face. For instance, you get a spanking, or you fall out of bed and hurt
yourself, or you get a hug from Mom.
When the message that you are getting from the Treasure Inside you is
the same message as you are getting from the World (from your
parents), there's no problem. In fact, the World's message then
validates what you are hearing in that important language from the
Treasure Inside. Then parents' messages help you to trust your inner
language.
Diagram Showing Agreement
Between The World And The
Treasure Inside:
How we develop:
Problem That Causes A Disconnect
But what happens when the message you get from your parents
differs from the message you are getting from your Treasure Inside?
For instance, a little three-year-old boy falls down and scrapes his
knee. He feels pain from the Treasure Inside, and he begins to cry in
response. But Dad, who is a real macho guy, says, "Don't be such a
crybaby. Big boys don't cry." The little boy, who worships his father
(as little boys always do) wants to please Dad, and so he represses his
crying. He says to himself, "I want to be a big boy. I won't cry."
This is always the way it works. In the eyes of a child, parents and
adults are godlike; and they are always right. In this example, the little
boy wants his father's love and affirmation. The feeling (physical pain)
coming up from his Treasure Inside is threatening to cause him not to
receive Dad's love.
He Begins To Disconnect From
Himself!
Therefore he sees the Treasure Inside as trouble. He begins to
distrust his inner language, because Dad is telling him that he
shouldn't feel what he is feeling.
The little boy judges his Treasure Inside and makes an Inner Vow not
to listen to it. The little boy is beginning to build a wall between his
Treasure Inside and his Head (his conscious self).
Diagram Showing A Wall Forming
Between The Head And The Treasure
Inside:
The beginning of a problem:
What Our Experience Should Be Like
Janet is a newborn baby. She wakes up in the middle of the night, and
she is hungry. "Hungry" is a negative feeling, and when babies feel
unpleasant things, they cry. Janet's mother responds, and she is a
good mother. She comes into the room and is very glad to see her
newborn child. She picks Janet up, and finds out that her diaper is
wet. She changes the diaper, and then she sits in a rocking chair and
nurses Janet. While the nursing is going on, the mother looks into
Janet's eyes, plays with her hands, talks to her, and sings to her.
Being a Christian mother, she openly prays for Janet. It is a wonderful
bonding moment. When Janet is done nursing, her mother picks her
up and gently lays her in her crib. She gives Janet a big kiss, and
tiptoes out of the room.
Making Friends With Herself
What's going on inside Janet? Now she is no longer hungry, or wet.
In addition she feels so good, because of having been close to Mama.
When Janet listened to and responded to her feelings of hunger, there
was a big pay off. She decides something like this (though non-
verbally): "The next time I feel that uncomfortable feeling coming up
from the Treasure Inside me, I'm going to pay attention and do the
same thing again" (cry). Listening and responding led to good things!
Diagram Showing This Growing
Willingness To Express What Comes
From The Treasure Inside
How it should be:
Janet's ability to hear what is going on inside her grows as a result of
such affirming experience.
What Happens When We Were Not
Heard
Mary is also a newborn baby. She wakes up in the middle of the night,
and she too is hungry. She responds to that negative feeling by
crying. But her mother is a not a good mother. Mother has her
boyfriend over, and they have been drinking. The last thing she wants
to do right at that moment is to take care of a crying baby. So Mary's
mother, storms into Mary's room, rushes over to the crib, and screams,
"I'll give you something to cry about, you little brat," and she smacks
Mary on the bottom. Then Mother stomps out of the room, and slams
the door.
What's going on inside Mary? Not only is she still hungry, but now
she has a sore bottom. She has been traumatized, and that drowns
out her hunger pangs. Responding to the uncomfortable hunger
feeling by crying did not help. In fact little Mary is worse off than
before she cried. So the conclusion that Mary will come to (again, not
verbally) is that the hunger feeling coming up from the Treasure Inside
caused trouble. When she responded to that feeling, bad things
happened.
Separating From Herself
Her conclusion is that what is in the Treasure Inside can be trouble.
So a process of judging her Treasure Inside begins, and a desire to
bury what she feels (the messages from her Treasure Inside) begins.
Diagram Showing A Loss Of
Willingness To Respond To The
Feelings From The Treasure Inside:
The Building Of A Wall Inside.
The problem develops:
These xperiences Are Frequent In
Childhood
Interactions with the World happen a countless number of times to
every little child as they grow up. The result of this process can lead to
either growing in their ability to hear what is coming up from the
Treasure Inside, or a growing tendency to repress those messages. If
enough repressing goes on, if there are enough events that invalidate
what is coming up from the Treasure Inside, eventually the person
won't hear those inner voices anymore. They have lost the use of
those valuable resources in their Treasure Inside. They have built a
“heart of stone."
The Wall
God intended for us to be whole so that we can truly be like Him. We
need all of the attributes that are in both our Head and our Treasure
Inside. Neither part is bad, and neither part is superfluous. Sometimes
we need to analyze a situation with our intellect and then simply go
and do it. Sometimes we need to listen to the messages from our
Treasure Inside and act on what they tell us.
However, The Wall we have built interferes with our ability to hear
these internal messages. The Wall wasn’t supposed to be there, and
you can see from the previous diagram that when The Wall is present
our access to the Treasure Inside is inhibited.
We Become Crippled!
In this case we have to try to live all aspects of our life from our Head,
and we may not even be aware that the Treasure Inside exists.
Without access to those attributes inside, we fail in some aspects of
our life.
For instance, a wife may be complaining that her husband can't
communicate with her. She expects him to know what is going on
inside her, yet she does not communicate her needs directly. Her
husband is very frustrated because he is not a "mind reader." He asks
himself, "How in the world am I supposed to know what she is feeling
when she does not seem to know herself?"
The problem comes about because the husband is cut off from his
Treasure Inside. In that place inside he does feel her pain and does
know what is going on inside her. There is ongoing communication
between her Treasure Inside and his Treasure Inside. However, the
awareness of that information never makes it through his Wall to his
conscious mind (his Head). He becomes frustrated, and his wife does
not feel heard. Because of the presence of The Wall in him, the
marriage is much less intimate and rewarding than God meant it to be.
It is also quite likely that the wife also has a Wall, and therefore she too
may not have a clear awareness of what her own needs are.
When The Wall is built, in a sense the person has buried their humanity.
Separation From God
The living Lord communes with our personal spirit. We are designed
to have a personal relationship with Him through this part of our
Treasure Inside. When we can hear God's voice, we will be reliably
guided by Him and prevented from sinning. We will be able to discern
Satan's traps and accurately identify the deceptions of the World.
Satan loses.
However, when we have shut ourselves off from our Treasure Inside,
we become unaware of God's presence. We are separated from Him
by The Wall, and our ability to hear Him is impaired (sometimes
totally)! This is the greatest tragedy that results from the building of
The Wall.
Satan's Favorite Trick
I believe that building The Wall is Satan’s favorite scheme, because he
loves to see us cut off from God. When we are cut off from God, we
have to rely on our intellect, which is ill-equipped to discern good and
evil, right and wrong. Satan can then lead us into all types of error.
Satan wins.
Unfortunately, history is filled with examples of people who are cut off
from their Treasure Inside. Some examples are the Crusades, the
Inquisition in the Middle Ages, and the Holocaust. These tragedies
could not have happened if people had been able to hear the living
God, because the Holy Spirit would prevent them from hurting other
people in these cruel ways.
The Holy Spirit Is Meant To Be Our
Guide
The Holy Spirit was in agony over the pain being inflicted on the
victims, and spoke to the hearts of those inflicting the abuse. But The
Wall in these perpetrators prevented the message from getting
through to the conscious faculties in their Head. They were unaware
of the pain they were inflicting.
Diagram Showing How The Wall Cuts
Us Off From The Living God:
An unfortunate side effect:
I am not implying that our personal spirit is God. However, for
Christians it is true that God does dwell in our Treasure Inside. Here I
am simply illustrating the fact that though God does dwell inside us
and speaks to us, we may not be able to consciously commune with
Him because The Wall gets in the way.
Separation From Self
A second great tragedy that results from The Wall is a separation from
ourselves, a separation of our Head from our Treasure Inside. The
Treasure Inside is very important to us. The most obvious result of
separation from self is that we are shut off from the benefit of all those
attributes contained therein. In fact most of our personhood, most of
who we are, is in our Treasure Inside. "We are much, much more than
our conscious processes."
This Separation Causes Internal Pain
But there is a more debilitating result than not being all we are meant
to be. Being cut off from ourselves causes incredible internal pain.
Our Treasure Inside is meant to be the best friend of our Head, and
suffers greatly when cut off from this relationship. The pain comes
about because we have decided that who we are in the Treasure
Inside isn’t acceptable. In fact, we conclude that this part of us inside
is bad! I call this internal pain the "Big Hurt," because it is the most
excruciating emotional pain we experience.
I will discuss more about the "Big Hurt" later in this chapter.
Separation from Others
The Wall also affects our ability to have relationships with other
people. It is the part of us that is sensitive and has compassion. It is
the part of us which has relationship with another person. Real
relationship is heart-to-heart (Treasure Inside-to-Treasure Inside), not
Head-to-Head. There is actual communication that occurs at the heart
level. Jesus could tell what was going on in peoples' hearts, and so
can we. When we have access to this part of us, we can then feel
what the other person is feeling. This sensing is called "empathy."
Relationships Are From Inside
Our personal spirit was given to us so that we can communicate heart-
to-heart in this way. However, if there is a Wall inside, our ability to
consciously hear what our personal spirit is saying is impaired, or
perhaps completely blocked. If completely blocked, we are forced to
try to figure out what is going on in the relationship with only our
head. Consequently, our relationships are shallow. We cannot feel
what others feel or sense what is going on behind the personality they
present to the world. It is not possible for us to have intimacy in our
relationships, because intimacy is only made possible by the heart-to-
heart connection.
Other people who are sensitive to their own Treasure Inside will be
able to sense that they are not connecting with us. We have them
locked out. Our relationships are hollow and not very rewarding to
either the other people or to us.
Men And Women Differ
Both men and women are wounded and react in the way I have been
explaining. Both do whatever they can to stop the pain coming up
from inside. However, God has so constructed men that they are more
efficient at building The Wall. Sometimes a man's Wall can be so
impenetrable that he is totally unaware of what is going on in the
Treasure Inside. Women are seldom able to accomplish this degree of
shutdown. Given the same amount of wounding, women would also
build a thick wall to stop the pain if they could, but they can’t. They
may hate themselves just as much, and they may be equally shut off
from being able to live from the Treasure Inside, but they are less able
to shut out the pain.
We All Have A Treasure Inside
Men and women do not differ in what is in their Treasure Inside! Both
men and women have the same attributes. What has often been
labeled as "your feminine side," or "women's intuition" has been so
labeled because these attributes tend to be outwardly evident in
women.
However, the main differences between men and women are not
based on what is in their Treasure Inside, but rather on the thickness
of The Wall that inhibits what is in their Treasure Inside from
manifesting itself outwardly. Over the ages, men have demonstrated
these "feminine" gifts. For example, men are just as intuitive and
artistic as women.
Men Have Demonstrated "Feminine"
Gifts
In past history most of the well known artists, sculptors, architects,
musicians, and composers were men. The gifts were obviously there,
and in some men they managed to come out. Of course, the reason
women didn't manifest those gifts publicly in the past was because
until recently, they were prohibited by the culture from doing so.
How Can You Know If You Have A
Wall Inside?
Are you a human being? Then you have a Wall inside. For some The
Wall is like the vault at Fort Knox – nothing can get in or out. For some
it is like Swiss cheese – it is solid but has holes in it. For some it is like
a screen door – there is some interference, but there are more holes
than blockages.
How can you know to what extent your Wall is disabling you? You can
tell by the fruit demonstrated in your life. Often, if The Wall is big and
thick, you may be unaware of the hurt in the Treasure Inside. You may
even be unaware that something is missing. You may simply know
that you are not very empathetic, or that you are not very
spontaneous, or that you do not cry very easily, or that you cannot
hear God’s voice. Often the feedback of other people is necessary to
bring to light what you cannot see. Often what you cannot see is
obvious to those around you.
Since there are so many possible ways The Wall can manifest itself, I
will not try to go into detail here. It is very important to realize that each
person is unique. We were each created by God to be unique, and we
each have our own life experiences. Consequently, there is no pat
answer that fits all people.
Jesus Can Remove The Wall
The only way to unravel this complex puzzle is in a living encounter
with another person and the Lord. Only then can we identify the bad
fruit and deal with The Wall. To be whole we always need to remove
The Wall, and this should be the most central necessity in Inner
Healing. Once The Wall is dismantled, the Lord is freed to be your
Counselor, to heal you in the deepest places hidden inside you.
How Can You Remove The Wall?
The Wall is made up of Judgments and Inner Vows. The Judgments
are against yourself (your Treasure Inside), and the Inner Vows are
decisions to not listen to the messages that come up from the
Treasure Inside.
For example, the little boy who skinned his knee feels pain coming
from the Treasure Inside. That Treasure Inside is compelling him to do
something that Dad disapproves of (to cry), and it thus threatens to
cause him the loss of Dad’s approval. Therefore the little boy judges
that place, the Treasure Inside, as being trouble. He decides “I’m not
going to be a wimp. I’m going to be brave. I’m not going to listen to
the pain anymore.” This is an Inner Vow.
I have previously discussed how to be cleansed of Bitter Root
Judgments and how to renounce Inner Vows. You deal with these
Judgments against yourself and the associated Inner Vows in exactly
the same way that you deal with them in relationship with other people.
and yet your Treasure Inside is a part of you.
Yourself
You need to restore this relationship in exactly the same way as you
would restore a relationship with any other person. You need to be
proactive and pursue the restoration. You need to persevere, and to
correct immediately any future Judgments you make against yourself.
And you need to spend time in relationship with your Treasure Inside
(listening, valuing, attending to, protecting, nurturing, blessing).
Relationships require time spent together, and interaction.
Your Most Important Human
Relationship
Bear in mind that your relationship with yourself is the most important
human relationship you have. Being able to have access to those
attributes in the Treasure Inside depends upon you having a loving
relationship with yourself. Having a Wall inside interferes with your
ability to hear God, to love Him, and to love other people. Therefore, if
you are at war within yourself, you cannot possibly fully and freely
love others.
Loving Yourself
Removing The Wall and keeping it from being rebuilt requires you to
not only tolerate your Treasure Inside, but to positively love yourself.
This is not selfishness or narcissism. It is obeying Jesus’ second
commandment to love others as you love yourself. He did not say to
love others and hate yourself. He said this because you were made
for love, and love must start with your Treasure Inside before it can be
manifested outside. God is love, and as you are changed into His
image, love must permeate your being.
You Become Selfish When You Are
Empty Inside
Loving yourself does not lead to selfishness. You become selfish
when you are empty and needy inside. When you are needy, that need
impels you to strive for more of what you are missing. That is the
nature of any need. If the need is severe enough, you are
compulsively driven to fill that empty place, even in unhealthy ways.
That is when you become self-focused.
If right now I asked you for a glass of water, you would be pleased to
give me one. After all, you have plenty to spare. However, if you have
been wandering in the Sahara Desert for three days with no water, all
you would be able to think about would be getting a drink of water.
Your thirst would consume your attention, because you would soon
die if you didn't get a drink. If you then found a single small glass of
water, and I asked you to give it to me, it would be almost impossible
for you to be big hearted and to let me have that glass of water which
you so desperately need. You would be literally driven to be "selfish."
Similarly, if you lack love for your Treasure Inside, you are absolutely
impelled to try to draw love out of others and out of life to fill the void.
Then your need is so great, and the demand inside screams so loudly,
you cannot hear others’ needs. You have no reserves of love to give
them. You are "selfish."
Loving Is An Ongoing Relationship
Loving is an ongoing necessity, not a one-time event. Thus you need
to walk daily, moment by moment, loving yourself. This is the only way
to continue to dismantle The Wall and to keep it from being rebuilt.
When you do actively love yourself in this way, you will find it easier
and easier to hear your Treasure Inside.
The Only Way To Love Others
You will also discover that you are loving God and other people. You
won't be trying to do this, you will do it effortlessly. You are loving
them because you have a surplus of love in your Treasure Inside. The
overflow of love is good fruit from a good root.
The "Big Hurt"
When people judge themselves instead of loving themselves, they feel
emotional pain. This particular sort of hurt is the most excruciating
and debilitating emotional pain a person can experience. God made it
to be so painful because He wants us to avoid doing this to ourselves.
I call it the "Big Hurt" because it is so severe. This pain of separation
from ourselves, from our Treasure Inside, is so pervasive and awful
that we will do anything to get rid of it.
For example, suppose your best friend no longer wants to do things
with you. Your friend always used to be available to go places and do
things with you, but now when you ask her (or him) to come over and
visit, there is always an excuse. How would that make you feel?
Take a moment and feel how that would make you feel.
How would you describe the feelings? Rejected, abandoned, empty,
unimportant, worthless, like "dog meat?"
Sequence Of Events When You
Judge Yourself:
This is what we do:
This all happens in an instant, and it is automatic. You would
only be consciously aware that it has happened when you
feel the "Big Hurt."
Ways To Cover Up The Pain
People are compelled into all sorts of behaviors in order to keep from
feeling this pain of separation. Most addictions, codependence, and
compulsive behaviors are attempts to dull this feeling.
Addictions are behaviors or substances that we discover through trial
and error that seem to reduce the intensity of the Big Hurt, and thus
make us feel a bit better for the moment. However, because these
things only cover the pain rather than fixing the source of the pain (the
judgment of ourselves), we must constantly indulge in them, trying to
obtain some relief.
The Big Hurt then dominates our life. We fear rejection (because being
rejected triggers our self-rejection). We cannot have empathy for
others because our inner pain is speaking so loudly that it drowns out
any such soft and subtle emotions. We are truly disabled.
The "Big Hurt" Gives The World
Power Over You
When you are at war with yourself in this way, the World has control
over you. It has control because the way people relate to you can
trigger your self-judgment, and that brings intolerable pain. You
become a people pleaser in order to avoid feeling the Big Hurt. On the
other hand, when the war inside you stops, and you are then loving
yourself, the World can no longer trigger the self-judgment. Then you
no longer have to please the World to keep from feeling the pain of the
self-judgment.
Therefore, only when it is safe inside you (you are loving your
Treasure Inside) are you able to withstand the hurt and the evil that is
in the world.
How To Live Free
When your internal relationship is one of love and not discord, and
you are determined to protect your Treasure Inside rather than attack
him or her, you are living the way God intended for you to live. And
since the Lord dwells in your Treasure Inside, you can rely on Him to
be your strength to keep you safe. Then you are safe from the fiery
darts of the enemy. Then you have the resources to love others and to
venture out into the evil world.
What About The "Bad Part?"
I have been speaking of loving yourself (your Treasure Inside), but
what about the fallen nature in each human being? Since we are
sinners, there is also a "bad part" inside us. However, the "bad part,"
which some refer to as "the flesh," is not what I have been referring to
as your Treasure Inside in my diagrams.
Unfortunately, many of us have seen our Treasure Inside as the "bad
part," and this perception has often been reinforced both by life
experiences and by some Bible teaching. I will address this issue in
detail in Chapter 13, “The Bad Part Of You." I also elaborate on the
"good part" in more detail in Chapter 12, "The Good Part Of You."
We Throw The Baby Out With The
Bathwater
Much of our trouble comes from confusing the "good part" with the
"bad part." We need to distinguish the difference between these two
parts, and recognize that they both exist. They are not one and the
same. When we have judged ourselves and built The Wall, we have
"thrown the baby out with the bath water." We have unwittingly
thrown out the good with the bad.
Why Should You Want To Remove
The Wall?
I have had numerous clients ask me why they should want to remove
The Wall. After all, it keeps them from feeling emotional pain. One man
in particular asked me this question, because he observed how his
wife was blown about by her emotions. He, on the other hand, was
able to stay cool in all situations. "Why would I want to enter her crazy
world?" he asked.
This is a very important question that needs to be addressed. After all,
when we have a Wall inside, we placed it there for a purpose - to
protect us from pain. I told him there were several reasons why he
should dismantle The Wall:
For this particular man, these were convincing, as he was a man who
wanted to serve and obey God. He decided to cooperate with Jesus in
the process of removing The Wall.
Summary
For some reason God didn't chose to place your various gifts in one
place inside you. You need to become aware of the fact that there is a
part of you, your Treasure Inside, over which you do not have
conscious control. It is a part of you that you truly need in order to
have intimate relationships with other people and with God. In order to
have access to those attributes contained in your Treasure Inside you
need to have an intimate, loving relationship with yourself.
If you are presently unable to do this, there is a Wall of separation that
needs to be removed. The Wall is made up of Bitter Root Judgments
against yourself, and Inner Vows not to listen to that part of you. Only
the blood of Jesus and the authority in His name can remove The
Wall. Removing The Wall is God's plan for you.
Read Chapter 12
Your "Treasure Inside," which I talked about in this chapter, really
exists. He or she is made in the image of God. This is a difficult
concept for many people to grasp, but Scripture is clear about this.
Chapter 12 of the book, which is included on this website, will provide
you with more information about the Treasure Inside you.
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There Is Buried Treasure
Two Places In You
"Who am I?" Haven’t we all asked ourselves this question?
Philosophers throughout the ages have written on this subject, and
the conclusions are diverse. However, God knows who we really are
and what we are like. He has revealed a great deal of this in His Word,
because He wants us to know who we are. Unfortunately, the world’s
philosophies have contaminated the Christian understanding of what
people are like; so even as Christians we have probably been given a
wrong picture of our nature as human beings. What is important is
what God has to say about us.
What I present in this chapter is not a full or exhaustive description of
humanity. We are complex and multifaceted. I will keep my focus
narrow to demonstrate that there are other parts to our being besides
our conscious faculty. There are several parts of us below our level of
consciousness (what I will refer to as "hidden"), including a part that is
not "bad," that has a "will" of its own, is human, and is a part of us.
The model I will now present helps me explain to you how the parts of
us interact and react as we experience life.
A Diagram Of You
When the Lord created you, He created a place hidden down inside of
you where he placed several attributes, such as your personal spirit,
your emotions, your creativity, your curiosity, your imagination, your
intuition, your masculinity or femininity, your spontaneity, your gifts,
and your talents.
At this point I will not place a label on this place "inside." A label is not
nearly as important as the awareness that there is a place where these
attributes dwell.
Another Place
There is another place the Lord created in you wherein dwells your
willpower, your intellect, and your consciousness. We are
consciously aware of this part of us.
What Do We Call These Two Places?
The place "hidden inside" that contains your personal spirit has been
given many labels by various people, including “heart," "center,"
"inner child," the "real self," our “true self," the "wonder child," our
"inner man," etc. There are many additional terms. I have found that all
of these terms are problematic, either because they are inadequate or
they have become "loaded" with other meaning. For instance, "Inner
Child" is a term that has been captured by New Agers and has become
loaded with their meanings. I am going to choose to use the term
"Treasure Inside" in this chapter, though in other places in this book I
may also use the terms "heart" or "inner man," depending on which
term seems most appropriate to the context.
Regarding the part of us which contains our willpower, intellect, and
consciousness, there are also several labels others have given to that
place. Fortunately, the names for this part of us are less problematic
than are the words used for our "inside" (our Treasure Inside), so I will
call this conscious part our "head."
A Third Place
There is a third place, which is not a part of us, but which impacts us
and relates to us. This place is the "World." For a small child this is
predominantly his or her parents (or other primary care givers).
We Are Complex
When God created us, He chose to distribute these various attributes
of ours into these two different places inside of us (our Head, and our
Treasure Inside) rather than mixing all the attributes together in one
place. We need all the attributes that are in both places, and somehow
they all need to work together. Each of the two parts of us contains
valuable tools that we need in order to live our life fully.
Our childhood experiences are what form the relationship between
these two parts (between our “Head," and our “Treasure Inside”) and
determine how all these parts are going to interrelate.
The Dynamics
You, in your conscious self (Head), receive messages from your
Treasure Inside, and you also receive messages from the World (which
in the early years is predominantly messages from your parents).
The messages you get from your Treasure Inside are little sensations
(sometimes big sensations), awareness, and feelings. But these
messages are not as overt or clear as the messages you get from the
World. The messages you get from the World are overt and in your
face. For instance, you get a spanking, or you fall out of bed and hurt
yourself, or you get a hug from Mom.
When the message that you are getting from the Treasure Inside you is
the same message as you are getting from the World (from your
parents), there's no problem. In fact, the World's message then
validates what you are hearing in that important language from the
Treasure Inside. Then parents' messages help you to trust your inner
language.
Diagram Showing Agreement
Between The World And The
Treasure Inside:
How we develop:
Problem That Causes A Disconnect
But what happens when the message you get from your parents
differs from the message you are getting from your Treasure Inside?
For instance, a little three-year-old boy falls down and scrapes his
knee. He feels pain from the Treasure Inside, and he begins to cry in
response. But Dad, who is a real macho guy, says, "Don't be such a
crybaby. Big boys don't cry." The little boy, who worships his father
(as little boys always do) wants to please Dad, and so he represses his
crying. He says to himself, "I want to be a big boy. I won't cry."
This is always the way it works. In the eyes of a child, parents and
adults are godlike; and they are always right. In this example, the little
boy wants his father's love and affirmation. The feeling (physical pain)
coming up from his Treasure Inside is threatening to cause him not to
receive Dad's love.
He Begins To Disconnect From
Himself!
Therefore he sees the Treasure Inside as trouble. He begins to
distrust his inner language, because Dad is telling him that he
shouldn't feel what he is feeling.
The little boy judges his Treasure Inside and makes an Inner Vow not
to listen to it. The little boy is beginning to build a wall between his
Treasure Inside and his Head (his conscious self).
Diagram Showing A Wall Forming
Between The Head And The Treasure
Inside:
The beginning of a problem:
What Our Experience Should Be Like
Janet is a newborn baby. She wakes up in the middle of the night, and
she is hungry. "Hungry" is a negative feeling, and when babies feel
unpleasant things, they cry. Janet's mother responds, and she is a
good mother. She comes into the room and is very glad to see her
newborn child. She picks Janet up, and finds out that her diaper is
wet. She changes the diaper, and then she sits in a rocking chair and
nurses Janet. While the nursing is going on, the mother looks into
Janet's eyes, plays with her hands, talks to her, and sings to her.
Being a Christian mother, she openly prays for Janet. It is a wonderful
bonding moment. When Janet is done nursing, her mother picks her
up and gently lays her in her crib. She gives Janet a big kiss, and
tiptoes out of the room.
Making Friends With Herself
What's going on inside Janet? Now she is no longer hungry, or wet.
In addition she feels so good, because of having been close to Mama.
When Janet listened to and responded to her feelings of hunger, there
was a big pay off. She decides something like this (though non-
verbally): "The next time I feel that uncomfortable feeling coming up
from the Treasure Inside me, I'm going to pay attention and do the
same thing again" (cry). Listening and responding led to good things!
Diagram Showing This Growing
Willingness To Express What Comes
From The Treasure Inside
How it should be:
Janet's ability to hear what is going on inside her grows as a result of
such affirming experience.
What Happens When We Were Not
Heard
Mary is also a newborn baby. She wakes up in the middle of the night,
and she too is hungry. She responds to that negative feeling by
crying. But her mother is a not a good mother. Mother has her
boyfriend over, and they have been drinking. The last thing she wants
to do right at that moment is to take care of a crying baby. So Mary's
mother, storms into Mary's room, rushes over to the crib, and screams,
"I'll give you something to cry about, you little brat," and she smacks
Mary on the bottom. Then Mother stomps out of the room, and slams
the door.
What's going on inside Mary? Not only is she still hungry, but now
she has a sore bottom. She has been traumatized, and that drowns
out her hunger pangs. Responding to the uncomfortable hunger
feeling by crying did not help. In fact little Mary is worse off than
before she cried. So the conclusion that Mary will come to (again, not
verbally) is that the hunger feeling coming up from the Treasure Inside
caused trouble. When she responded to that feeling, bad things
happened.
Separating From Herself
Her conclusion is that what is in the Treasure Inside can be trouble.
So a process of judging her Treasure Inside begins, and a desire to
bury what she feels (the messages from her Treasure Inside) begins.
Diagram Showing A Loss Of
Willingness To Respond To The
Feelings From The Treasure Inside:
The Building Of A Wall Inside.
The problem develops:
These xperiences Are Frequent In
Childhood
Interactions with the World happen a countless number of times to
every little child as they grow up. The result of this process can lead to
either growing in their ability to hear what is coming up from the
Treasure Inside, or a growing tendency to repress those messages. If
enough repressing goes on, if there are enough events that invalidate
what is coming up from the Treasure Inside, eventually the person
won't hear those inner voices anymore. They have lost the use of
those valuable resources in their Treasure Inside. They have built a
“heart of stone."
The Wall
God intended for us to be whole so that we can truly be like Him. We
need all of the attributes that are in both our Head and our Treasure
Inside. Neither part is bad, and neither part is superfluous. Sometimes
we need to analyze a situation with our intellect and then simply go
and do it. Sometimes we need to listen to the messages from our
Treasure Inside and act on what they tell us.
However, The Wall we have built interferes with our ability to hear
these internal messages. The Wall wasn’t supposed to be there, and
you can see from the previous diagram that when The Wall is present
our access to the Treasure Inside is inhibited.
We Become Crippled!
In this case we have to try to live all aspects of our life from our Head,
and we may not even be aware that the Treasure Inside exists.
Without access to those attributes inside, we fail in some aspects of
our life.
For instance, a wife may be complaining that her husband can't
communicate with her. She expects him to know what is going on
inside her, yet she does not communicate her needs directly. Her
husband is very frustrated because he is not a "mind reader." He asks
himself, "How in the world am I supposed to know what she is feeling
when she does not seem to know herself?"
The problem comes about because the husband is cut off from his
Treasure Inside. In that place inside he does feel her pain and does
know what is going on inside her. There is ongoing communication
between her Treasure Inside and his Treasure Inside. However, the
awareness of that information never makes it through his Wall to his
conscious mind (his Head). He becomes frustrated, and his wife does
not feel heard. Because of the presence of The Wall in him, the
marriage is much less intimate and rewarding than God meant it to be.
It is also quite likely that the wife also has a Wall, and therefore she too
may not have a clear awareness of what her own needs are.
When The Wall is built, in a sense the person has buried their humanity.
Separation From God
The living Lord communes with our personal spirit. We are designed
to have a personal relationship with Him through this part of our
Treasure Inside. When we can hear God's voice, we will be reliably
guided by Him and prevented from sinning. We will be able to discern
Satan's traps and accurately identify the deceptions of the World.
Satan loses.
However, when we have shut ourselves off from our Treasure Inside,
we become unaware of God's presence. We are separated from Him
by The Wall, and our ability to hear Him is impaired (sometimes
totally)! This is the greatest tragedy that results from the building of
The Wall.
Satan's Favorite Trick
I believe that building The Wall is Satan’s favorite scheme, because he
loves to see us cut off from God. When we are cut off from God, we
have to rely on our intellect, which is ill-equipped to discern good and
evil, right and wrong. Satan can then lead us into all types of error.
Satan wins.
Unfortunately, history is filled with examples of people who are cut off
from their Treasure Inside. Some examples are the Crusades, the
Inquisition in the Middle Ages, and the Holocaust. These tragedies
could not have happened if people had been able to hear the living
God, because the Holy Spirit would prevent them from hurting other
people in these cruel ways.
The Holy Spirit Is Meant To Be Our
Guide
The Holy Spirit was in agony over the pain being inflicted on the
victims, and spoke to the hearts of those inflicting the abuse. But The
Wall in these perpetrators prevented the message from getting
through to the conscious faculties in their Head. They were unaware
of the pain they were inflicting.
Diagram Showing How The Wall Cuts
Us Off From The Living God:
An unfortunate side effect:
I am not implying that our personal spirit is God. However, for
Christians it is true that God does dwell in our Treasure Inside. Here I
am simply illustrating the fact that though God does dwell inside us
and speaks to us, we may not be able to consciously commune with
Him because The Wall gets in the way.
Separation From Self
A second great tragedy that results from The Wall is a separation from
ourselves, a separation of our Head from our Treasure Inside. The
Treasure Inside is very important to us. The most obvious result of
separation from self is that we are shut off from the benefit of all those
attributes contained therein. In fact most of our personhood, most of
who we are, is in our Treasure Inside. "We are much, much more than
our conscious processes."
This Separation Causes Internal Pain
But there is a more debilitating result than not being all we are meant
to be. Being cut off from ourselves causes incredible internal pain.
Our Treasure Inside is meant to be the best friend of our Head, and
suffers greatly when cut off from this relationship. The pain comes
about because we have decided that who we are in the Treasure
Inside isn’t acceptable. In fact, we conclude that this part of us inside
is bad! I call this internal pain the "Big Hurt," because it is the most
excruciating emotional pain we experience.
I will discuss more about the "Big Hurt" later in this chapter.
Separation from Others
The Wall also affects our ability to have relationships with other
people. It is the part of us that is sensitive and has compassion. It is
the part of us which has relationship with another person. Real
relationship is heart-to-heart (Treasure Inside-to-Treasure Inside), not
Head-to-Head. There is actual communication that occurs at the heart
level. Jesus could tell what was going on in peoples' hearts, and so
can we. When we have access to this part of us, we can then feel
what the other person is feeling. This sensing is called "empathy."
Relationships Are From Inside
Our personal spirit was given to us so that we can communicate heart-
to-heart in this way. However, if there is a Wall inside, our ability to
consciously hear what our personal spirit is saying is impaired, or
perhaps completely blocked. If completely blocked, we are forced to
try to figure out what is going on in the relationship with only our
head. Consequently, our relationships are shallow. We cannot feel
what others feel or sense what is going on behind the personality they
present to the world. It is not possible for us to have intimacy in our
relationships, because intimacy is only made possible by the heart-to-
heart connection.
Other people who are sensitive to their own Treasure Inside will be
able to sense that they are not connecting with us. We have them
locked out. Our relationships are hollow and not very rewarding to
either the other people or to us.
Men And Women Differ
Both men and women are wounded and react in the way I have been
explaining. Both do whatever they can to stop the pain coming up
from inside. However, God has so constructed men that they are more
efficient at building The Wall. Sometimes a man's Wall can be so
impenetrable that he is totally unaware of what is going on in the
Treasure Inside. Women are seldom able to accomplish this degree of
shutdown. Given the same amount of wounding, women would also
build a thick wall to stop the pain if they could, but they can’t. They
may hate themselves just as much, and they may be equally shut off
from being able to live from the Treasure Inside, but they are less able
to shut out the pain.
We All Have A Treasure Inside
Men and women do not differ in what is in their Treasure Inside! Both
men and women have the same attributes. What has often been
labeled as "your feminine side," or "women's intuition" has been so
labeled because these attributes tend to be outwardly evident in
women.
However, the main differences between men and women are not
based on what is in their Treasure Inside, but rather on the thickness
of The Wall that inhibits what is in their Treasure Inside from
manifesting itself outwardly. Over the ages, men have demonstrated
these "feminine" gifts. For example, men are just as intuitive and
artistic as women.
Men Have Demonstrated "Feminine"
Gifts
In past history most of the well known artists, sculptors, architects,
musicians, and composers were men. The gifts were obviously there,
and in some men they managed to come out. Of course, the reason
women didn't manifest those gifts publicly in the past was because
until recently, they were prohibited by the culture from doing so.
How Can You Know If You Have A
Wall Inside?
Are you a human being? Then you have a Wall inside. For some The
Wall is like the vault at Fort Knox – nothing can get in or out. For some
it is like Swiss cheese – it is solid but has holes in it. For some it is like
a screen door – there is some interference, but there are more holes
than blockages.
How can you know to what extent your Wall is disabling you? You can
tell by the fruit demonstrated in your life. Often, if The Wall is big and
thick, you may be unaware of the hurt in the Treasure Inside. You may
even be unaware that something is missing. You may simply know
that you are not very empathetic, or that you are not very
spontaneous, or that you do not cry very easily, or that you cannot
hear God’s voice. Often the feedback of other people is necessary to
bring to light what you cannot see. Often what you cannot see is
obvious to those around you.
Since there are so many possible ways The Wall can manifest itself, I
will not try to go into detail here. It is very important to realize that each
person is unique. We were each created by God to be unique, and we
each have our own life experiences. Consequently, there is no pat
answer that fits all people.
Jesus Can Remove The Wall
The only way to unravel this complex puzzle is in a living encounter
with another person and the Lord. Only then can we identify the bad
fruit and deal with The Wall. To be whole we always need to remove
The Wall, and this should be the most central necessity in Inner
Healing. Once The Wall is dismantled, the Lord is freed to be your
Counselor, to heal you in the deepest places hidden inside you.
How Can You Remove The Wall?
The Wall is made up of Judgments and Inner Vows. The Judgments
are against yourself (your Treasure Inside), and the Inner Vows are
decisions to not listen to the messages that come up from the
Treasure Inside.
For example, the little boy who skinned his knee feels pain coming
from the Treasure Inside. That Treasure Inside is compelling him to do
something that Dad disapproves of (to cry), and it thus threatens to
cause him the loss of Dad’s approval. Therefore the little boy judges
that place, the Treasure Inside, as being trouble. He decides “I’m not
going to be a wimp. I’m going to be brave. I’m not going to listen to
the pain anymore.” This is an Inner Vow.
I have previously discussed how to be cleansed of Bitter Root
Judgments and how to renounce Inner Vows. You deal with these
Judgments against yourself and the associated Inner Vows in exactly
the same way that you deal with them in relationship with other people.
- First you need to forgive and be forgiven in order to stop the
operation of God's laws (and to take away the power that drives
the Inner Vow).
Second, you need to renounce the Inner Vow. For example, "In
the name of Jesus, I renounce the decision that I made to never
pay attention to my emotions."
Finally, you need to restore the relationship, in this case your
relationship with yourself (your Treasure Inside).
and yet your Treasure Inside is a part of you.
Yourself
You need to restore this relationship in exactly the same way as you
would restore a relationship with any other person. You need to be
proactive and pursue the restoration. You need to persevere, and to
correct immediately any future Judgments you make against yourself.
And you need to spend time in relationship with your Treasure Inside
(listening, valuing, attending to, protecting, nurturing, blessing).
Relationships require time spent together, and interaction.
Your Most Important Human
Relationship
Bear in mind that your relationship with yourself is the most important
human relationship you have. Being able to have access to those
attributes in the Treasure Inside depends upon you having a loving
relationship with yourself. Having a Wall inside interferes with your
ability to hear God, to love Him, and to love other people. Therefore, if
you are at war within yourself, you cannot possibly fully and freely
love others.
Loving Yourself
Removing The Wall and keeping it from being rebuilt requires you to
not only tolerate your Treasure Inside, but to positively love yourself.
This is not selfishness or narcissism. It is obeying Jesus’ second
commandment to love others as you love yourself. He did not say to
love others and hate yourself. He said this because you were made
for love, and love must start with your Treasure Inside before it can be
manifested outside. God is love, and as you are changed into His
image, love must permeate your being.
You Become Selfish When You Are
Empty Inside
Loving yourself does not lead to selfishness. You become selfish
when you are empty and needy inside. When you are needy, that need
impels you to strive for more of what you are missing. That is the
nature of any need. If the need is severe enough, you are
compulsively driven to fill that empty place, even in unhealthy ways.
That is when you become self-focused.
If right now I asked you for a glass of water, you would be pleased to
give me one. After all, you have plenty to spare. However, if you have
been wandering in the Sahara Desert for three days with no water, all
you would be able to think about would be getting a drink of water.
Your thirst would consume your attention, because you would soon
die if you didn't get a drink. If you then found a single small glass of
water, and I asked you to give it to me, it would be almost impossible
for you to be big hearted and to let me have that glass of water which
you so desperately need. You would be literally driven to be "selfish."
Similarly, if you lack love for your Treasure Inside, you are absolutely
impelled to try to draw love out of others and out of life to fill the void.
Then your need is so great, and the demand inside screams so loudly,
you cannot hear others’ needs. You have no reserves of love to give
them. You are "selfish."
Loving Is An Ongoing Relationship
Loving is an ongoing necessity, not a one-time event. Thus you need
to walk daily, moment by moment, loving yourself. This is the only way
to continue to dismantle The Wall and to keep it from being rebuilt.
When you do actively love yourself in this way, you will find it easier
and easier to hear your Treasure Inside.
The Only Way To Love Others
You will also discover that you are loving God and other people. You
won't be trying to do this, you will do it effortlessly. You are loving
them because you have a surplus of love in your Treasure Inside. The
overflow of love is good fruit from a good root.
The "Big Hurt"
When people judge themselves instead of loving themselves, they feel
emotional pain. This particular sort of hurt is the most excruciating
and debilitating emotional pain a person can experience. God made it
to be so painful because He wants us to avoid doing this to ourselves.
I call it the "Big Hurt" because it is so severe. This pain of separation
from ourselves, from our Treasure Inside, is so pervasive and awful
that we will do anything to get rid of it.
For example, suppose your best friend no longer wants to do things
with you. Your friend always used to be available to go places and do
things with you, but now when you ask her (or him) to come over and
visit, there is always an excuse. How would that make you feel?
Take a moment and feel how that would make you feel.
How would you describe the feelings? Rejected, abandoned, empty,
unimportant, worthless, like "dog meat?"
Sequence Of Events When You
Judge Yourself:
This is what we do:
This all happens in an instant, and it is automatic. You would
only be consciously aware that it has happened when you
feel the "Big Hurt."
Ways To Cover Up The Pain
People are compelled into all sorts of behaviors in order to keep from
feeling this pain of separation. Most addictions, codependence, and
compulsive behaviors are attempts to dull this feeling.
Addictions are behaviors or substances that we discover through trial
and error that seem to reduce the intensity of the Big Hurt, and thus
make us feel a bit better for the moment. However, because these
things only cover the pain rather than fixing the source of the pain (the
judgment of ourselves), we must constantly indulge in them, trying to
obtain some relief.
The Big Hurt then dominates our life. We fear rejection (because being
rejected triggers our self-rejection). We cannot have empathy for
others because our inner pain is speaking so loudly that it drowns out
any such soft and subtle emotions. We are truly disabled.
The "Big Hurt" Gives The World
Power Over You
When you are at war with yourself in this way, the World has control
over you. It has control because the way people relate to you can
trigger your self-judgment, and that brings intolerable pain. You
become a people pleaser in order to avoid feeling the Big Hurt. On the
other hand, when the war inside you stops, and you are then loving
yourself, the World can no longer trigger the self-judgment. Then you
no longer have to please the World to keep from feeling the pain of the
self-judgment.
Therefore, only when it is safe inside you (you are loving your
Treasure Inside) are you able to withstand the hurt and the evil that is
in the world.
How To Live Free
When your internal relationship is one of love and not discord, and
you are determined to protect your Treasure Inside rather than attack
him or her, you are living the way God intended for you to live. And
since the Lord dwells in your Treasure Inside, you can rely on Him to
be your strength to keep you safe. Then you are safe from the fiery
darts of the enemy. Then you have the resources to love others and to
venture out into the evil world.
What About The "Bad Part?"
I have been speaking of loving yourself (your Treasure Inside), but
what about the fallen nature in each human being? Since we are
sinners, there is also a "bad part" inside us. However, the "bad part,"
which some refer to as "the flesh," is not what I have been referring to
as your Treasure Inside in my diagrams.
Unfortunately, many of us have seen our Treasure Inside as the "bad
part," and this perception has often been reinforced both by life
experiences and by some Bible teaching. I will address this issue in
detail in Chapter 13, “The Bad Part Of You." I also elaborate on the
"good part" in more detail in Chapter 12, "The Good Part Of You."
We Throw The Baby Out With The
Bathwater
Much of our trouble comes from confusing the "good part" with the
"bad part." We need to distinguish the difference between these two
parts, and recognize that they both exist. They are not one and the
same. When we have judged ourselves and built The Wall, we have
"thrown the baby out with the bath water." We have unwittingly
thrown out the good with the bad.
Why Should You Want To Remove
The Wall?
I have had numerous clients ask me why they should want to remove
The Wall. After all, it keeps them from feeling emotional pain. One man
in particular asked me this question, because he observed how his
wife was blown about by her emotions. He, on the other hand, was
able to stay cool in all situations. "Why would I want to enter her crazy
world?" he asked.
This is a very important question that needs to be addressed. After all,
when we have a Wall inside, we placed it there for a purpose - to
protect us from pain. I told him there were several reasons why he
should dismantle The Wall:
- 1. To have the hurts inside healed. With The Wall in place, we
can't tell where our wounds are. I will talk about this in detail in
Chapter 11, "Emotions Are Your Friend."
2. To have access to the resources in our Treasure Inside.
Otherwise we will continue to have a very limited ability to
operate in those gifts.
3. To be like Jesus. Jesus didn't have The Wall inside Him.
4. To obey Jesus. Jesus wants us to be like Him; and so when
we decide that we want The Wall dismantled, we will be doing
what Jesus wants us to do. Jesus will be pleased with this
decision and will direct our path in this quest.
For this particular man, these were convincing, as he was a man who
wanted to serve and obey God. He decided to cooperate with Jesus in
the process of removing The Wall.
Summary
For some reason God didn't chose to place your various gifts in one
place inside you. You need to become aware of the fact that there is a
part of you, your Treasure Inside, over which you do not have
conscious control. It is a part of you that you truly need in order to
have intimate relationships with other people and with God. In order to
have access to those attributes contained in your Treasure Inside you
need to have an intimate, loving relationship with yourself.
If you are presently unable to do this, there is a Wall of separation that
needs to be removed. The Wall is made up of Bitter Root Judgments
against yourself, and Inner Vows not to listen to that part of you. Only
the blood of Jesus and the authority in His name can remove The
Wall. Removing The Wall is God's plan for you.
Read Chapter 12
Your "Treasure Inside," which I talked about in this chapter, really
exists. He or she is made in the image of God. This is a difficult
concept for many people to grasp, but Scripture is clear about this.
Chapter 12 of the book, which is included on this website, will provide
you with more information about the Treasure Inside you.
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Copyright 2003 Edward Kurath
| If there is enough repressing going on, if there are enough events that invalidate what is coming up from their Treasure Inside, eventually they won't hear those inner voices anymore. |
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Divinely Designed
Being changed into the image of Jesus
Being changed into the image of Jesus
| What we call these places is not so important as knowing what attributes dwell therein |
| The Wall is a big problem for us, because it prevents us from being whole. We are unable to access those important gifts which are inside. |
| The main differences between men and women are not based upon differences in what is in their Treasure Inside, but on the thickness of The Wall. |
Judgments and Inner Vows Against ourselves! |
| When you are at war inside, you are controlled by the world. When you end the war and begin to live your life loving yourself, the world loses its power over you. |
| We need to recognize that there is within us both a "bad part" and a "good part" (our Treasure Inside) It is imperative to not confuse the two! |
| Key Concepts: First, you are restoring a living relationship (with yourself); and Second, it is the most important human relationship you have! All your other relationships are dependent on this one. |
| Chapter 9 is perhaps the most profound presentations in this book. It will help you to understand yourself and how you got wounded, and will therefore help you to better understand how to be set free.. |
Click here to go to Chapter 12 (or click on the list on the left of this page). |
Click here to go to Chapter 12 (or click on the list on the left of this page). |
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